Hi. I do have a lot of updates. It is all positive. It feels aligned and right. Energy is flowing through me. There is trust and surrender. The fear is present as a sensation, but it is not in the driver’s seat. I am about to take a big leap of faith.
I committed to a project building a retreat center as operations. I wanted to finish because what I am building I actually own. But my boss is manipulative, lying to my face, and pretending to be the genius while putting everything on my plate. I will not overgive anymore. After the first week I realized I would not last to the original end date. I moved my exit to 60 days, then more disrespect happened, and now I am calling it: thirty days. I will deliver what is agreed, asynchronously, get paid, and leave. My last day is December 5.
Yes, money matters. I do not have savings, so I have to be careful. But I am not going to live from fear. I am documenting the whole thing, because people like me need to see it done another way. This is a 30-day public series starting December 1: who I am, what I am building, how I navigate fear without letting it run the show. I will invite support and make offers, and I will keep my nervous system safe.
Financially, I love the distinction: expenses management over income fantasies. I accept that dollars are finite and trade-offs can be empowering. I also know my pattern: when scared, I try to control by fleeing to the cheapest country. I am done with poverty thinking and self-abandonment. I am a Generator. I can wait, respond, and move from clarity instead of panic.
I do not know when abundance lands, only that it will. So I am designing for two possibilities. Option one: plan day-by-day and assign every dollar as it hits. Option two: cover rent first, then create from safety. Either way, I only plan money that actually exists. No fantasy dollars.
Workwise, I prefer group leverage and productized offerings over endless 1:1 calls. The Get Unstuck program is ready: ten weeks, one call weekly. I also have my Spiritual Identity Report productized. I can offer limited 1:1 without frying my system. My energy is precious, and I design around that.
Geography: I feel a deep pull to go home. I have Canadian and Australian passports. I want summer, language I live in, quiet, nature, and options. Australia makes sense first: it is summer and I can finalize my passport in person. Canada remains part of my long arc. I can chase summer between them. The lease deposit here in Costa Rica is $1,500. If leaving early serves the plan, it is a sunk cost, not a chain.
Logistics: my Costa Rica visa ends November 14. The cheapest visa run flight was to Toronto, which feels like a cosmic wink. I will be there Nov 14–21 staying solo, seeing my mom and close friends, and working remotely. When I return, I finish the month, get paid $2,850 salary, $400 commission, and a $1,000 bonus I negotiated for out-of-scope work. Then I am done.
Time zones: moving to Australia may actually help. Early-morning calls for North American clients give me a healthy boundary baked into the clock. The planet can be my boundary.
YNAB: I used cash last month for my motorbike repair and reassigned properly from categories. The method works. I plan paycheck-to-paycheck truthfully. If there is overflow at month’s end, I will assign it with intention.
What I am choosing: safety in my body as the operating system. Faith and structure together. Homecoming as a practice, not a nostalgia. Work that does not fry me. Offers that align with my energy economics. Boundaries that stick. Documentation that tells the truth.
I am ready.
Channel Ledger
- Last day with current employer: December 5, 2025.
- Next compensation expected: $2,850 salary plus $400 commission plus $1,000 negotiated bonus.
- Boundaries set: asynchronous work only, deliver tasks, get paid, exit clean.
- Two financial operating modes discussed:
- Day-by-day planning of every inflow as it arrives.
- “Rent-covered” baseline via a small, stable income stream or short projects.
- Costa Rica constraints: cannot legally take in-person employment; online marketplaces like Upwork are misaligned.
- Travel: visa run Nov 14–21 to Toronto on a low-cost direct flight, staying solo at a friend’s place.
- Geography pull: homecoming to Canada and/or Australia, with Australia favored for summer, passport processing, and long-term mobility.
- Lease: remaining term through January; $1,500 deposit treated as sunk cost if leaving early serves the plan.
- Offers ready: Get Unstuck 10-week group program, limited 1:1 coaching, Spiritual Identity Report productized.
- December plan: 30 days of public documentation to introduce the project, invite support, and begin audience building.
- Energetic hygiene: low capacity for traditional employment, preference for project-based work and group leverage.
- Time zones: Australia may improve boundaries for calls with North America.
Thread Matrix
| Thread ID | Thread Title | Themes (Tags) | Summary | Potential Use | Notes |
| T1 | Ending the Pattern at Work | boundaries, overgiving, narcissism-awareness, exit | I name the manipulation, reaffirm boundaries, and set a clean, time-boxed exit for Dec 5. | Audiogram on “No more overgiving” | Calm, resolute, slightly fiery. |
| T2 | Leap of Faith, Documented | leap-of-faith, regulation, discernment, brand-building | I will publicly document a 30-day leap, balancing faith with clear financial design. | 30-day social series + podcast | Emphasis on nervous system safety. |
| T3 | Money Safety Models | cashflow, YNAB, paycheck-planning, rent-baseline | Two models: day-by-day planning vs covering rent first, so I can create from safety. | Visual explainer + blog | First principles, no fantasy dollars. |
| T4 | Homecoming Geography | home, return, Canada, Australia, Costa-Rica | I feel a deep pull to return home, likely via Australia first for passport and summer. | Essay: “What home means now” | Somatic yes when naming Aus/Can. |
| T5 | Nervous System First | regulation, sovereignty, trauma-aware | No manifestation without regulation. I choose moves that preserve safety in body. | Short reel + post | “Safety is strategy.” |
| T6 | Offers and Capacity | group-program, productized, low-screen | I prefer group leverage and productized readings; limited 1:1 to protect capacity. | Sales page refresh | One call per week model works. |
| T7 | Energetic Hygiene at Work | neurodiversity, capacity, drains | Traditional part-time jobs drain me; project-based, values-aligned work sustains me. | Guide: “Work that doesn’t fry you” | Clear boundary with screens/people. |
| T8 | Logistics and Paperwork | visa-run, passports, sunk-cost | Toronto visa run Nov 14–21; Australia passport errand is strategic; deposit is sunk. | Ops checklist post | Adulting with grace, no drama. |
| T9 | Time-Zone as Boundary | time-zones, boundaries, operations | Australia’s time zone can enforce healthy meeting windows and create structure. | Ops tip carousel | “Boundary by Earth’s rotation.” |
Threads
Thread T1 – Ending the Pattern at Work
I am done playing the role of the overgiver. I named the lying and manipulation, and I set a hard exit: December 5. For the next 30 days I will deliver only what is agreed to, asynchronously, and I will get paid. Then it is clean cut. This is me breaking the pattern, choosing dignity over proximity to power, and walking out with my tools intact.
Key Theme Tags: boundaries, overgiving, narcissism-awareness, exit
Summary: I stop feeding manipulation, finish clean, and leave with my systems and self-respect.
Potential Use: Audiogram on “I do not overgive anymore.”
Thread T2 – Leap of Faith, Documented
I am making the leap and I am telling the story in real time. Thirty days of public documentation starting December 1: who I am, what I am building, and how I navigate fear without letting it drive. I will invite support and offer ways to work with me, without outsourcing my safety to sales. Faith and structure can coexist.
Key Theme Tags: leap-of-faith, regulation, discernment, brand-building
Summary: I document the leap as a practice of truth, trust, and transparent design.
Potential Use: 30-day content series, podcast episode.
Thread T3 – Money Safety Models
I hold two permissible money modes. Mode A: day-by-day planning, assigning every dollar as it arrives. Mode B: secure the “rent-covered baseline,” then create from steadiness. No fantasy income. I plan only money that has actually landed. If there is overflow at month’s end, it moves with intention.
Key Theme Tags: cashflow, YNAB, paycheck-planning, rent-baseline
Summary: Two viable cashflow modes that prioritize safety, truth, and movement.
Potential Use: Visual explainer, blog walkthrough of both models.
Thread T4 – Homecoming Geography
My body says home. Australia first makes sense: summer, passport logistics, and a fresh field. Canada remains part of the circuit. I want a quiet base, nature, and language I can live in. I can visit cities, not be consumed by them. The lease deposit is a sunk cost if leaving sooner serves the plan.
Key Theme Tags: homecoming, Australia, Canada, Costa-Rica, return
Summary: I choose geographies that speak my language and feed my regulation.
Potential Use: Essay “What home means now.”
Thread T5 – Nervous System First
I do not manifest from fear. My body’s safety is strategy, not an afterthought. I move when I am resourced, and I design finances that reduce volatility. This is a trauma-literate leap.
Key Theme Tags: regulation, sovereignty, trauma-aware
Summary: Safety in the body is the operating system for all next moves.
Potential Use: Short reel “Safety is strategy.”
Thread T6 – Offers and Capacity
I am built for group leverage and productized offerings. One 10-week call each week lights me up. Limited 1:1 by design. My Spiritual Identity Report can run without synchronous time. I already have offers built; the work is packaging, pages, invites.
Key Theme Tags: group-program, productized, capacity, low-screen
Summary: Offers align with my energy economics: fewer calls, deeper impact.
Potential Use: Sales page refresh and offer map.
Thread T7 – Energetic Hygiene at Work
Part-time jobs with random humans drain me. Project-based, values-aligned work is the path. I will ask my network for short, well-bounded projects that match my discernment, not platforms that race to the bottom.
Key Theme Tags: neurodiversity, capacity, project-based
Summary: I protect my field and pick work that respects how I function.
Potential Use: Guide “Work that doesn’t fry you.”
Thread T8 – Logistics and Paperwork
Toronto visa run Nov 14–21. Australia passport errand is strategic optionality. Lease deposit is already spent in my mind; I will not let $1,500 anchor me where I do not belong. Adulting, not drama.
Key Theme Tags: visa-run, passports, sunk-cost
Summary: I move paperwork with clarity and treat sunk costs as sunk.
Potential Use: Ops checklist post.
Thread T9 – Time-Zone as Boundary
Australia’s time zone may be a gift. Early-morning North American calls create a natural stop to the day and protect my nervous system. The planet can be my boundary.
Key Theme Tags: time-zones, boundaries, operations
Summary: Time zones can enforce healthy work windows.
Potential Use: Ops tip carousel.
Reflection Summary
Primary Energy= empowerment, trust, momentum; DominantRealm= Channel; Recurring Themes= boundaries | discernment | safety; Insight= I can leap without abandoning regulation by choosing geographies, money models, and offers that protect my nervous system; Potential Use= 30-day documentation series plus “Money Safety Models” explainer and homecoming essay
Quotes
| Quote / Snippet | Emotion / Hook | Thread ID | Notes / Context |
| I am not overgiving anymore. | firm relief | T1 | Exit line, strong audiogram. |
| Faith and structure can coexist. | balanced power | T2 | Core thesis of the 30-day series. |
| Safety in my body is strategy. | grounded authority | T5 | Tagline for trauma-literate money. |
| I only plan dollars that exist. | practical truth | T3 | YNAB-aligned mantra. |
| The deposit is sunk, not my future. | reframe | T8 | Sunk-cost clarity. |
| The planet can be my boundary. | poetic ops | T9 | Time-zone insight. |
| I build from steadiness, not fear. | calm conviction | T5 | Nervous-system north star. |
| I choose work that doesn’t fry me. | neurodivergent wisdom | T7 | Offer design ethos. |