Hey, what’s up? It’s me, JGB, checking in.

Some of you know I’ve been gearing up to start my business, launch my brand, tell my story, and create content. That’s what I want to do. But what am I actually doing? None of that.

And honestly, this isn’t new for me. I’ve been struggling with how to show up online for a long time. I’m someone who’s very goal-oriented and disciplined, so in my mind, I think, “All I have to do is set the goal to create content and then just do it.” But the truth is, every time I try to show up, I hit a huge block.

I am doing a lot of inner work behind the scenes. I do intend to tell my story. I do intend to create content. But it’s not going to be simple or easy for me. I’m not going to show up like everyone else, and I’m learning to be okay with that. I’m giving myself grace and trying to figure out what actually works for me.

Part of the story I’m going to tell is that I received a late diagnosis of autism and ADHD. Yes, you can have both—and it gets even more complex when you do. Learning that I’m autistic has led me into this process of unmasking, and it’s brought up big questions like: “How do I even show up in the world?” Because the truth is, I don’t really know. I’ve been masking my whole life.

So here I am, trying to put myself out there, and I just don’t know how. I’m not someone who can casually sit down and whip out a post. Everything I do has to come from depth and authenticity. And I keep trying all these methods that seem to work for other people—carousel posts, storytelling strategies, branding content—and every time I try to plug into that formula, it doesn’t feel right. It doesn’t feel true.

What I need is a method that works for me—one that allows me to show up as my real, unfiltered self. Because I have a message. I have a story to tell. I know I’m here to give something. I’ve known this my whole life. I’ve had visions of this moment for as long as I can remember, and now I’m finally here. It’s time.

And with that knowing comes a lot of pressure—and pressure doesn’t work well with my brain. I need ease. I need alignment. I need to feel safe and comfortable to channel and share what’s inside me. So I’m trying to find a way to do this that fits my brain and my nervous system.

So far, everything I’ve tried has felt off. Days pass, then weeks, then months. And this has been the cycle for years. The intention is there. The discipline is there. But the method hasn’t been.

I know there’s a way that I can show up fully in my essence—where it feels natural, where I’m in my power—and that’s what I’m trying to find.

I have notebooks filled with all the things I want to say. But one of the things I’m learning about my autistic brain is that I see the big picture so clearly—it’s hard to condense it down into specific, digestible pieces. How do I take these massive, layered visions and turn them into a few words? I don’t know. And that’s something I struggle with.

The truth is, I think I need help. I’ve spent most of my life doing things alone, but part of my journey now is learning to ask for help. I’ll talk more about that soon. But for today, in this moment, there’s just so much inside me that wants to come out. I can feel my voice trying to break through, but it’s stuck.

I know I’m working with some serious blocks. My throat chakra—blocked. My sacral chakra—also blocked. Creativity, self-expression, being seen… these are all areas I’m actively working through. And this right here—this exact process of stepping up and using my voice—is part of the healing.

It’s frustrating, deeply frustrating, to have such a clear vision in my mind but to struggle so much with putting it into words. But I’m beginning to understand this is part of how autism shows up for me.

So my work right now is to keep showing up—my way. Not by forcing myself to fit into someone else’s mold. That’s never worked. And instead of beating myself up about it, I’m learning to try new things and give myself compassion.

So, here I am, today, just sitting down and expressing. And I’m wondering: what if I just did this every day? Ten minutes. Just data-dump. Just use my voice. Just show up.

Because one of my biggest blocks is the fear of being perceived—of being seen, judged, misunderstood, criticized. But I know this is the work. This discomfort, right at the edge of my comfort zone—that’s where the magic is.

Of course, I have to be careful not to push myself into overwhelm, which leads to shutdown. But there’s a sweet spot—a place just beyond my comfort zone where I can align, stretch, and grow without burning out.

So I’m going to try this. Ten minutes a day. Documenting. Speaking my truth. Because I can’t keep spinning my wheels anymore. I feel like I’m in A Beautiful Mind—so many notes, repeating the same patterns over and over. It makes me feel a little unhinged. But even through that chaos, I know without a doubt: this is what I’m here to do.

I’m here to show up. I’m here to speak truths.

For so long, I’ve asked myself what my purpose is. And I’ve found it. Yes, I’m a helper. Yes, I’m a healer. But more than that—I’m here to speak. That’s how I’ll help. That’s how I’ll heal. I see things clearly. I have a message. I have truth to share.

And I’m ready to start using my voice.

That’s ten minutes.

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Main Themes

1. Authentic Self-Expression

   • Desire to tell your story in a way that feels real and aligned.

   • Struggle with using traditional content creation methods that don’t fit.

2. Neurodivergence Awareness

   • Late diagnosis of autism and ADHD.

   • Navigating the unmasking process.

   • Unique challenges in communication and processing.

3. Creative Block & Inner Conflict

   • Clear inner vision vs. difficulty expressing it outwardly.

   • Frustration with being stuck despite discipline and intentions.

4. The Need for Personalized Methods

   • Recognizing that typical strategies don’t work.

   • Seeking a method that fits your brain, nervous system, and energy.

5. Fear of Being Seen

   • Fear of being perceived, judged, or criticized.

   • Deep vulnerability around visibility and sharing voice.

6. Healing & Spiritual Growth

   • Throat and sacral chakra blocks.

   • Understanding expression as part of healing and spiritual purpose.

7. Purpose & Calling

   • Lifelong knowing that you’re here to help and speak truths.

   • Recent clarity that speaking is central to your healing role.

8. Commitment to Practice

   • Deciding to show up daily for 10 minutes.

   • Embracing the discomfort as part of the process.

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